Monday, September 2, 2013

teaching me to walk

We are in a season of challenge and growth.

-A month or so ago, there was a storm that caused surges in the electricity near our house and blew out our oven and dishwasher and TV and baby monitors and sound machines and CD player and my hair clippers and trimmers and a few other things. A few things have been replaced but we've been without an oven and dishwasher for what seems like seven years now. (The TV was one in our bedroom and that's not the end of the world, so we're just probably not going to replace that).
I really miss baking and I'm growing very weary of sauteed meals, since only our stove top works.

-Kevin's car had issues and had to go into the shop.

-A lot of really hard family stuff has come up.

-Nora has been going through a wake-up-all-night phase.

-I bought a brand new pair of shoes and we lost them.

-We had saved up and worked hard to regain a very small savings that now all has to go to fixing the oven only. The rest we just need to wait on.

-In the last two weeks, I had hardly anybody scheduled on my books, obviously affecting my income.

-During a big rain, we woke up to water on the kitchen floor and a piece of our ceiling sheet rock hanging down, revealing spots of mold.

-Our drains started not draining. After Kevin crawling under the house and checking some things out, we found that we have to dig up and replace the main pipe of plumbing from our house out to the city street.

It seems the normal response is to give up and cry. To say SCREW THIS! and have an attitude of doubt and negativity and even a little "What the heck, God?!"
But what good does that do? What would the last 7 years of us walking with Holy Spirit have been for?
Praising the Father isn't just for when things are going well and everything's fun. Because I'm learning sometimes LIFE IS JUST HARD! The key is - how are we responding to it? Whose strength are we tapping into to get through it? Because we will get through it. Every hard thing that comes our way is a chance to respond right, Kevin and I to grow closer and stronger, and to press deeper into our spiritual maturity by knowing Yahweh deeper. And in that place, He teaches us what to do in these hard times.

A wise friend of mine described it like this and I just adore the analogy:
When you're teaching your baby to walk, you step back, hold your arms out and make her come to you.
Did you step away from her because you don't love her? Because you're leaving her out in the open so she can be harmed or in danger?
Of course not! You stepped back so that, as long as she keeps her eyes on you, she knows to press in and walk towards you. You take another step back and she takes another step towards you.

That's our relationship with Yahweh. He hasn't left us. He's not mad at us, nor are we being punished for doing something wrong. He's ready to take us deeper. So He's stepped back. And in that space from where we currently are to where we need to be by taking the step towards Him is painful because for that moment in time, we're not in His arms. We're with Him, and He's right there - but there's a gap between us for the purpose of learning. So it's our job to recognize that He's stepped back because He wants us to learn to walk in an even deeper revelation of Him, and to step forward. To be with Him.

And what's so, so sweet about this picture is that when you're baby takes several steps towards you, you decide to pick her up at the last step, however many steps it's been, and throw her in the air with happiness and rejoicing and there is kissing and clapping and great blessing because you are so proud of her for doing something hard and not giving up and trusting you.

I know our season of rejoicing is coming soon. And I know Yahweh is and will be proud of us for keeping our eyes on him and taking step after step.

Thank you for stepping back, Father.

3 comments:

Chrissy Galloway said...

Love. This.

Haley Galloway said...

^^^ Agreed. So good.

Dennis said...

ah, Jessica. Let us remember this post and discuss one day in the future. :)

Monday, September 2, 2013

teaching me to walk

We are in a season of challenge and growth.

-A month or so ago, there was a storm that caused surges in the electricity near our house and blew out our oven and dishwasher and TV and baby monitors and sound machines and CD player and my hair clippers and trimmers and a few other things. A few things have been replaced but we've been without an oven and dishwasher for what seems like seven years now. (The TV was one in our bedroom and that's not the end of the world, so we're just probably not going to replace that).
I really miss baking and I'm growing very weary of sauteed meals, since only our stove top works.

-Kevin's car had issues and had to go into the shop.

-A lot of really hard family stuff has come up.

-Nora has been going through a wake-up-all-night phase.

-I bought a brand new pair of shoes and we lost them.

-We had saved up and worked hard to regain a very small savings that now all has to go to fixing the oven only. The rest we just need to wait on.

-In the last two weeks, I had hardly anybody scheduled on my books, obviously affecting my income.

-During a big rain, we woke up to water on the kitchen floor and a piece of our ceiling sheet rock hanging down, revealing spots of mold.

-Our drains started not draining. After Kevin crawling under the house and checking some things out, we found that we have to dig up and replace the main pipe of plumbing from our house out to the city street.

It seems the normal response is to give up and cry. To say SCREW THIS! and have an attitude of doubt and negativity and even a little "What the heck, God?!"
But what good does that do? What would the last 7 years of us walking with Holy Spirit have been for?
Praising the Father isn't just for when things are going well and everything's fun. Because I'm learning sometimes LIFE IS JUST HARD! The key is - how are we responding to it? Whose strength are we tapping into to get through it? Because we will get through it. Every hard thing that comes our way is a chance to respond right, Kevin and I to grow closer and stronger, and to press deeper into our spiritual maturity by knowing Yahweh deeper. And in that place, He teaches us what to do in these hard times.

A wise friend of mine described it like this and I just adore the analogy:
When you're teaching your baby to walk, you step back, hold your arms out and make her come to you.
Did you step away from her because you don't love her? Because you're leaving her out in the open so she can be harmed or in danger?
Of course not! You stepped back so that, as long as she keeps her eyes on you, she knows to press in and walk towards you. You take another step back and she takes another step towards you.

That's our relationship with Yahweh. He hasn't left us. He's not mad at us, nor are we being punished for doing something wrong. He's ready to take us deeper. So He's stepped back. And in that space from where we currently are to where we need to be by taking the step towards Him is painful because for that moment in time, we're not in His arms. We're with Him, and He's right there - but there's a gap between us for the purpose of learning. So it's our job to recognize that He's stepped back because He wants us to learn to walk in an even deeper revelation of Him, and to step forward. To be with Him.

And what's so, so sweet about this picture is that when you're baby takes several steps towards you, you decide to pick her up at the last step, however many steps it's been, and throw her in the air with happiness and rejoicing and there is kissing and clapping and great blessing because you are so proud of her for doing something hard and not giving up and trusting you.

I know our season of rejoicing is coming soon. And I know Yahweh is and will be proud of us for keeping our eyes on him and taking step after step.

Thank you for stepping back, Father.

3 comments:

Chrissy Galloway said...

Love. This.

Haley Galloway said...

^^^ Agreed. So good.

Dennis said...

ah, Jessica. Let us remember this post and discuss one day in the future. :)