I got to spend a few hours while big sister napped this afternoon folding laundry and eating lunch with this little darling.
I just look at her and am in awe.
Because her arrival took this family to a whole other level, family-wise.
It was all fun and cute and smaller and more contained when we just had Ruby.
But with two, especially seeing that their personalities are pretty different, I am reminded that I am so not in control.
That our little family is growing.
Our responsibilities are increasing.
Our parenting abilities are being tested and more added to us.
Our marriage is tested, and we run to each other in unity like never before.
I am constantly aware that something I say flippantly, or in passing could burrow itself into their little brains and stay forever, so it better be something good.
And then I tell myself:
"you are the steward and not the owner. Are you doing your very best, and giving it to Yahweh and letting Him direct you on how to mother?"
and I say "yes"
I think "are you worried about something that's not even happening or here?"
and I say "well, I was. But I'm not anymore" :)
and then i'm reassured and boosted to keep going. Because that's all one can do.
Just do your best.
Pray for your children. Pray with them.
Talk around them all the time about what Yahweh is doing in your life, so that they can see it for themselves in real lives, in their own family's, instead of just hearing Bible stories and never making the connection that that God is REAL and He speaks today.
It's a mother's nature to brood over her children, but I know the even greater calling is to release them and know that the Father of all fathers is in control. Kevin and I often say "He's the ultimate parent". We try to raise our girls like He raises us.
The birth of Nora has brought on a flood of change in this home.
I guess she is holding up to her name - shedding light and bringing Truth to all that needs it.