Thursday, September 13, 2012

o.t.m.

That stands for One Tired Mother if you were wondering.
Because that's what I am!

I am so SO looking forward to getting Nora and Ruby on some sort of similar napping schedule. Because otherwise this two-kid gig is LITERALLY 24 hour shifts. If you have two, how old was baby when they got into a regular routine especially sleeping same time as the oldest one?

I don't sleep at night, like only a couple hours. Not because of Nora, but because of some weirdo adrenaline hormones I have going. Like...I'm exhausted, but I'm not sleeping. When, pray tell, does that end?!

Also- I am having the serious urge to purge. (except...no energy to actually do it) Get it all out of here. I'm already what some would consider a minimalist. And sometimes I'll read articles or stories about purging and they are talking about the most DUH concepts ever. I really don't have a hoarding problem whatsoever. BUT I am ready to go to the next step. After doing 6 loads of laundry Monday night I thought "this is ridiculous, way too many clothes, there's only 4 of us". That'll scare you into not having more kids, all that laundry.

Actually, now that I think about it, I'm totally a hoarder. It's just not in the main parts of the house. It's all back in the storage room. If we had a dollar for every time we said "put it in the back room" to a mystery item, we'd have around $567.00.

And all these seasoned mothers that say NAP WHEN YOUR KIDDOS NAP! are overlooking two problems:
-well it's nice that child one is sleeping, but child two is crying and very much needs me because she is wide awake.
-i can't sleep, remember?

Do I sound like I'm complaining? I'm really not. I'm just speaking factually.
I was praying today during my 43-second long shower that I still haven't combed my hair and have old mascara strewn all over my face from, for some supernatural energy from the HS. So, I'm on my way to getting closer to His presence and that's where I'll have the energy to do what I need to do.

I have my 6 week post-pardum check up today. Excited to see how much Gabor weighs. I'll get the go-ahead to work out and to be married ifyaknowwhatimean and then right after that a friend is coming over for dinner. Our hippie friend Brandon with dreadlocks and the best heart. I love him and learn a lot about kindness and gentleness from being around him.

You know what I'm learning in life that I just absolutely love and adore and want to jump and rejoice and Praise The Lord for?

To just let go.

It's so amazing. I used to add so much stress to myself and have so many impractical expectations. And He's teaching me what really matters and releasing me to just be myself and be confident in that and not have to BE anything for anybody. I love it so much. I love when God identifies you. It's my one thing in life that I cannot and will not go without. Him and the freedom He gives.

Life is so good, with sleep or without:)





6 comments:

Emily Kaiser said...

I'm so sorry you aren't sleeping well, especially at night! Have you tried taking Melatonin to wind down? Just one little 3 mg tablet should do the trick. It won't make you feel groggy when Nora wakes up to eat either. Have you tried to hold off Ruby's nap to match up with Nora's or vice versa? All of these questions/suggestions might be no-brainers! Owen quit napping when Nora was born, so I totally understand! Nowadays, when I get both girls asleep and I am in desperate need of sleep, I give him a snack and set him up with a show, just so I can get 15-20 minutes. 30 minutes of that evil Yo Gabba Gabba might become your very, best friend.

Hope you got the go ahead to, "be married!" I don't wait for permission :) We were married again after just 3.5 weeks this time ;)

Bridget Corp said...

Jess,
The funny thing about your post today - the more I read, the faster I read it. I was imagining you typing it in fast motion. :)

I think any mother of more than 1 child can understand everything you're going through. I thought when I had Zach it would just double my workload at home. It didn't, it seemed to quadruple. How is that even possible - I only had 1 more child? It seems the law of physics doesn't apply to dirty diapers, laundry and kids toys.

When I can't turn off my brain or when I have a migraine I practice a relaxation technique I learned 22 yrs ago in child birth class. I visualize the same beach I picked back then, remember the hot sand, the sound of the water, the kids playing. I just focus on that memory. Then, starting with my toes I begin to relax, letting go of everything. While still thinking about the beach I work my way up my major muscle groups and am usually asleep before I get to my head (either that or I bore myself into passing out - but still the same result). Anyway - give it a try. I hope it works.

Bridge

jessica kiehn said...

Thank you guys for your suggestions! Elizabeth actually mentioned melatonin as well, so i'll have to look into that.

And bridget, I tried your relaxation method. The trick is your mind actually focusing on relaxing! I got to about my ankles and then realized i was off thinking about something else! ha!

Rebecca said...

I have the same issues...I FINALLY lay down after getting all the girls to sleep but cant fall asleep for at least an hour or two....my brain is on overdrive because it's at that very second I realize all the things I need to get done the next day...you know during all the "free time" i have with 3 kids and all. haha But I too, realize all the things I want to purge out of my house and I want to organize everything!!!!!! I feel like I need about 6 more closets in my house and at least 2 additional rooms in order to fit everything we have in a semi-organized manner. haha ohhhh the life! It's definitely not boring to say the LEAST!!

Just take it one day at a time momma, it's nothing you can't handle....you just not be able to handle it your "ideal way"...if there even is such a thing. :)

Leslie said...

I remember my boys being a baby and 2 being the hardest age. It DOES get easier. I lucked out and their afternoon nap was always the same. I guess because we did Baby Wise with both of them? But that hour or 2 of time is what you need to recharge. It's a saving grace.

You are one of the best mama's I know!!

Jami Nato said...

melatonin. take it. then sleep. it's magic.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

o.t.m.

That stands for One Tired Mother if you were wondering.
Because that's what I am!

I am so SO looking forward to getting Nora and Ruby on some sort of similar napping schedule. Because otherwise this two-kid gig is LITERALLY 24 hour shifts. If you have two, how old was baby when they got into a regular routine especially sleeping same time as the oldest one?

I don't sleep at night, like only a couple hours. Not because of Nora, but because of some weirdo adrenaline hormones I have going. Like...I'm exhausted, but I'm not sleeping. When, pray tell, does that end?!

Also- I am having the serious urge to purge. (except...no energy to actually do it) Get it all out of here. I'm already what some would consider a minimalist. And sometimes I'll read articles or stories about purging and they are talking about the most DUH concepts ever. I really don't have a hoarding problem whatsoever. BUT I am ready to go to the next step. After doing 6 loads of laundry Monday night I thought "this is ridiculous, way too many clothes, there's only 4 of us". That'll scare you into not having more kids, all that laundry.

Actually, now that I think about it, I'm totally a hoarder. It's just not in the main parts of the house. It's all back in the storage room. If we had a dollar for every time we said "put it in the back room" to a mystery item, we'd have around $567.00.

And all these seasoned mothers that say NAP WHEN YOUR KIDDOS NAP! are overlooking two problems:
-well it's nice that child one is sleeping, but child two is crying and very much needs me because she is wide awake.
-i can't sleep, remember?

Do I sound like I'm complaining? I'm really not. I'm just speaking factually.
I was praying today during my 43-second long shower that I still haven't combed my hair and have old mascara strewn all over my face from, for some supernatural energy from the HS. So, I'm on my way to getting closer to His presence and that's where I'll have the energy to do what I need to do.

I have my 6 week post-pardum check up today. Excited to see how much Gabor weighs. I'll get the go-ahead to work out and to be married ifyaknowwhatimean and then right after that a friend is coming over for dinner. Our hippie friend Brandon with dreadlocks and the best heart. I love him and learn a lot about kindness and gentleness from being around him.

You know what I'm learning in life that I just absolutely love and adore and want to jump and rejoice and Praise The Lord for?

To just let go.

It's so amazing. I used to add so much stress to myself and have so many impractical expectations. And He's teaching me what really matters and releasing me to just be myself and be confident in that and not have to BE anything for anybody. I love it so much. I love when God identifies you. It's my one thing in life that I cannot and will not go without. Him and the freedom He gives.

Life is so good, with sleep or without:)





6 comments:

Emily Kaiser said...

I'm so sorry you aren't sleeping well, especially at night! Have you tried taking Melatonin to wind down? Just one little 3 mg tablet should do the trick. It won't make you feel groggy when Nora wakes up to eat either. Have you tried to hold off Ruby's nap to match up with Nora's or vice versa? All of these questions/suggestions might be no-brainers! Owen quit napping when Nora was born, so I totally understand! Nowadays, when I get both girls asleep and I am in desperate need of sleep, I give him a snack and set him up with a show, just so I can get 15-20 minutes. 30 minutes of that evil Yo Gabba Gabba might become your very, best friend.

Hope you got the go ahead to, "be married!" I don't wait for permission :) We were married again after just 3.5 weeks this time ;)

Bridget Corp said...

Jess,
The funny thing about your post today - the more I read, the faster I read it. I was imagining you typing it in fast motion. :)

I think any mother of more than 1 child can understand everything you're going through. I thought when I had Zach it would just double my workload at home. It didn't, it seemed to quadruple. How is that even possible - I only had 1 more child? It seems the law of physics doesn't apply to dirty diapers, laundry and kids toys.

When I can't turn off my brain or when I have a migraine I practice a relaxation technique I learned 22 yrs ago in child birth class. I visualize the same beach I picked back then, remember the hot sand, the sound of the water, the kids playing. I just focus on that memory. Then, starting with my toes I begin to relax, letting go of everything. While still thinking about the beach I work my way up my major muscle groups and am usually asleep before I get to my head (either that or I bore myself into passing out - but still the same result). Anyway - give it a try. I hope it works.

Bridge

jessica kiehn said...

Thank you guys for your suggestions! Elizabeth actually mentioned melatonin as well, so i'll have to look into that.

And bridget, I tried your relaxation method. The trick is your mind actually focusing on relaxing! I got to about my ankles and then realized i was off thinking about something else! ha!

Rebecca said...

I have the same issues...I FINALLY lay down after getting all the girls to sleep but cant fall asleep for at least an hour or two....my brain is on overdrive because it's at that very second I realize all the things I need to get done the next day...you know during all the "free time" i have with 3 kids and all. haha But I too, realize all the things I want to purge out of my house and I want to organize everything!!!!!! I feel like I need about 6 more closets in my house and at least 2 additional rooms in order to fit everything we have in a semi-organized manner. haha ohhhh the life! It's definitely not boring to say the LEAST!!

Just take it one day at a time momma, it's nothing you can't handle....you just not be able to handle it your "ideal way"...if there even is such a thing. :)

Leslie said...

I remember my boys being a baby and 2 being the hardest age. It DOES get easier. I lucked out and their afternoon nap was always the same. I guess because we did Baby Wise with both of them? But that hour or 2 of time is what you need to recharge. It's a saving grace.

You are one of the best mama's I know!!

Jami Nato said...

melatonin. take it. then sleep. it's magic.