Friday, June 29, 2012

36 Weeks!


We're getting there, folks.
Our natural doctor predicted she'll be here July 17th.
Let's see if he's right.
Either way...we're getting there!

I feel great today and in true hormonal fashion, that varies from day to day.
One day, I can't take it anymore and I can't wait for this to be over.
The next day I feel good and want her to stay in there because life with only one is surely easier than life with two.

So much easier to carry her in my belly and not lug around that stinkin carseat.
Along with a 20lb stuffed diaper bag full of everything under the sun.

Basically, my one piece of advice for pregnant women in the last stretch (I learned this with Ruby) is to STAY BUSY.
Just keep going, going, going (and rest when needed) because otherwise you'll just sit and think and let your mind get the best of you. 
Like waaaaah why am I still pregnant. And this hurts, and that hurts!
Just keep moving. Stay busy, and hopefully sleep good and hard at night.

4 (ish) more weeks!


p.s. Had an appointment today! I am dilated to a 2.5 and 50% effaced. eek!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Staying Positive!


As of late, if you need me, you can find me sprawled out looking a little something like the above photo.
Sometimes even a shirt is uncomfortable touching my belly, so up she goes. Belly exposed. Classy!

Each night, like this very one, I toss and turn silently begging for a comfortable position.
I can't decide whether to let my mind wander and think of birth/baby things or not being pregnant anymore. Either one makes me miserable because they both are NOT HERE!

Pregnancy shows me very clearly that patience is not my forte.

On another note, I also realize I have two choices:
whine for another month
shut up and make this a fun and memorable month for our little family of three.

We've been really busy lately which is a good thing!
Baby shower for my SIL, bridal shower and wedding for my cousin, work, church, midwife appointments, friends coming into town, etc. How much does it stink that the 4th of July is on a Wednesday this year?! I love 4th of July. Everyone in our town drives to this one park and lays out blankets and watches the huge fireworks display. And I have always been excited for baby N to hear the loud booms and claps inside the belly (seriously, how fun?!)

BUT we'll be in church, and miss all the fireworks:(
There's always next year!

It's been scorching here lately. Like, I feel like the sun has been approximately 20 feet from the earth's surface where we live.
I am so, so thankful for all the trees that surround our house. They shade and cool our house SO much. Such a blessing.

Ruby is loving having her cousins living here now. They are so ornery and yelling one minute and downright precious the next. Ahh toddler first born girls. I love them.

Look what Daddy found on the road and brought home to us!
Turtie. Ruby loved him. We brought him inside and set him on the coffee table and kissed and held him.
Then our friend told us through text that turtles carry salmonella and we should wash our hands.
So Turtie was let outside to go find his Mom and Dad.


 Ever since our family pictures, Ruby thinks the way you pose for a picture is to kiss your Mommy.
I hope this phase never ends.
I can get a kiss whenever I want so long as there is a camera pointed towards us.


Can't get enough of this little girl and this awesome age...

Friday, June 22, 2012

Pals


My sweet girl. My firstborn.
You'll always be the child of mine that first won my heart. 
I love you.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

The Best Father I Know


To my husband, the father of our children. 
Sometimes, when you have it good, and have always had it good you just don't realize how good you've got it.
May our children always, always know the value in having you as a Daddy growing up.

We don't take your hard work ethic, your always-positive attitude, your calming and gentle spirit, or your hilariousness for granted. 
We adore every single little thing about you.
Everything!

Happy Father's Day, my love.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Pregnancy Encouragement

27 wks. in Florida
 It's not always easy being chipper and cheery while pregnant.
It's some of your most sick and most uncomfortable days.

But I can't help but often shake myself and just say come on.
I think of all the women out there who would kill to be in my shoes, who have prayed and longed and desired to be pregnant but just can't.
How dare I whine or complain about something that is an absolute gift.

I think it may be a little bit easier the second and subsequent times around because now we have children and we see how amazing it is.
If Jesus died on the cross...I can be pregnant and birth a baby.


I've said, at my hardest times during this pregnancy "I don't know if I want to do this again, Kevin. This is such a long, hard process." and "remind me, in 2 years when I come to you and start saying 'honey, let's have another baby!' and I have that look in my eye....remind me how miserable I am right now please"

But in all actuality, I know for a fact, that in 2 or so years, I will be coming to my husband, longing for another child. Because it's just in me.
And because, let's say pregnancy is 9 months of total hell (which it's not), then it's ONLY 9 MONTHS OF TOTAL HELL for the greatest thing on earth!
For a child of yours!
For a life.
For another one of Yahweh's sons or daughters to fulfill His purpose for them on the earth, that could do who knows what for the Kingdom of God.



This preciousness and this calling is priceless. I would do it over and over and over again, if you were the result each time, Ruby girl.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Snapshots

  When I get a picture of these two together my heart just smiles.
I love them both so much, together and separately.


Sleeping babies - nothing better.


We gave our scooter away this week. We got it when we were newly married and child-less. We had lots and lots of fun summer nights on that thing. So glad the new owners will get to enjoy it as much we did!


Again, heart so happy with this picture.



Delicious summery dinner my honey made last night. Couscous, my love. 


Oh, and if you were wondering about Ruby's rather tiny pants, it's because we got down her old newborn clothes for baby N and since I was obviously excited about what was in the bin...so was she. She was pulling the clothes out and putting them on.
These are size 0-3 months, haha!


Monday, June 11, 2012

How Much Longer?


33.5 weeks. Yes, that "and a half" is very important!

If I could describe the way I feel in one word it would be: uncomfortable.

It's almost as if I have a heavy, 18-inch long mass in my belly shoving all my organs to the wrong spots and pushing my stomach acids up up and away into my chest and throat.

Sigh. But...I know that sweet, cute little mass will be here soon.
I keep telling myself "you're almost 34 weeks. Then the next week will go really fast and you'll be 35. Then it's only 2 weeks till you're 37, Jessica. And THEN you're just 3 weeks away from having her!"

That seems easier to grasp than six weeks away. Bleh.

......................................................................................................


If you ever need help in the kitchen, call Ruby James. She is awesome at helping.
She cleans her room very well for a 2 year old, and can grate cheese.
I love her.



Saturday, June 9, 2012

Picnic With Cousins


This morning we met my momma and older sister and her children at the square for a picnic and some play time.
Shannon (my oldest sister) just moved back home with her family from Syracuse, NY and we are all happy to have them back.
Ruby finally has cousins around!

Aunt Caitlyn (my youngest sister) and her nieces and nephew


I've always said I think we'll have four kids...that is a lot. And that's with one in my belly.



Ruby, thus far, has been the star of the show. She's the been the only grandaughter around on my side, and the only one, period, on Kevin's side.
She'll figure out once her little sister is here that she doesn't really always get to be the center of attention. Having cousins around sure is good for a little one.

Especially cousins that forgive you after you've furrowed your brow and growled at them upon things not going your way...

Thursday, June 7, 2012

The Counting Game


Does your toddler ask the same question six hundred and seventy nine times, even when you've answered them over and over?
Mine does!


So to keep myself from yelling RUBY! STOP! (because we do not yell in this house. Not in anger anyway. Maybe desperation. We shout and sing way too loud and chant each other's names while doing something awesome, but we do not yell in anger)... I came up with a way to keep myself sane during the 11th time of "Mommy, I want some mmm" even though I am currently getting her some mmm. {Mmmm = food, btw. She came up with that...}


I started playing a game to myself where I count how many times she does it.
Now it's like a fun, exciting little "oh gosh, is she?! Is she gonna make it to 14 times? Come on, one more time! I want to tell your Dad you asked me for that 14 times!!"

It seriously works, try it.

Me and Kev will be in the car and she'll be in the back asking to go where we are ALREADY GOING over and over and over. And we just smile at each other and take a deep breath while we watch my fingers go up in counting. (Last night to church it was that she wanted to go to church 16 times. Asking for Clarence 17 times is the record so far).


Until they are really old enough to grasp "do not ask one more time", do yourself a favor and play this game. And realize they are just sweet little people learning and soaking it all in and they don't understand social rules like we do, so let's give 'em a break. 

Happy Counting!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

No Such Thing As Mundane


Lately, life around here has been pretty interesting.
One day I have energy and I'm so happy and all motivated and could participate in track and field events if I stumbled across a meet somewhere.
And the very next day you can find me laying on my side, along with my 3 best friends: pillows. Between my legs, arms, and under my head.

Having a toddler sure makes pregnancy different. In all honesty, though, I like it better.
The time goes by faster and you stay fitter because you are forced to move quite a bit more.


The girls' room is coming together and it's my favorite place in our house.
I can't wait to see and put up the paintings my friend Gena so sweetly offered to paint us.


Tis the season for caprese salad!
Is there anything cooler than going outside to your herbs and picking a few, rinsing them, then eating them? I love it. And all I have is basil and some lettuce from last year.
The dressing I use is easy peasy:
equal parts balsamic vinegar and EVOO
garlic to taste
honey to taste


Every time I give Ruby caprese salad, I come back to get her out of her high chair and all that's left in the bowl is red and green. She just eats the chunks of mozerella. Funny girl:)

I love, love, love watching her play.
She is so sweet and so kind in her own little play world. The way to talks to her animals is so sweet.
She is a natural-born Mommy, that's for sure.


I've been drinking lots of smoothies lately. I just love how much nutrients you can pack into something so yummy and refreshing.
I guarantee you, if you switched out your morning coffee for a smoothie with spinach and chia seeds you will have just as much, if not more, energy. It's amazing. I can tell a big difference when I don't have a spinach smoothie.


32 weeks, people!
I'm suspecting this darling will come a few days early, though I'm not getting any hopes up.
I just want a healthy, fully formed baby.


All the people that have told me my belly is so small this time are no longer saying that:)
This belly is huge, and I still have 8 weeks to go! Agh!


Here's to the rest of my pregnant (and thereafter) days being those awesome, great-feeling, track and field days!

Friday, June 1, 2012

31-32 weeks


Yesterday I turned 32 weeks along.
Nuts!
Only 8 more weeks to go.
This photo is from last week on Kevin's phone so I was actually 31 weeks here.

I cut my old OB/GYN's hair today and was reminding him that I was dilated to a 4 with Ruby for over a week a couple weeks before my due date. And he said that the chances of me having this baby even a few weeks early is quite possible due to my history with the first pregnancy.
SO
the plan is to stay very very hydrated so that I can keep this little girl in as long as she needs to be. We don't want an early baby if we can help it!
But I believe babies come when they're supposed to, so long as you don't mess around with nature.

Plus, second labors, I hear, are generally half the time as your first. That means 6 hours this time.
Especially since it wasn't that long ago since I had my last baby.
Again...nuts!

It's crazy to think that I actually will have another child and that this baby actually will come out.
It all seems so theoretical until they come.

Anyways!
Gestation: 32 weeks
Feeling: really good! I have noticed just the past week or so getting headaches and having lots of gorgeous heartburn. I can't lean or bend over comfortably anymore, that's for sure. But in general, I feel so good.
Nursery: almost done! It is so, so, so, so CUTE. I love to hang out in the girls' room. That's where I fold laundry because it's so sweet and beautiful and happy. I'll post pictures as soon as it's all finished. ie. we don't even have a crib mattress or any bedding and the walls are blank. (that will soon change!)
Weight gained: 18lbs. Starting this week I gain a pound a week! And baby starts getting chubby:)
Cravings: sugar! and ice. I love ice. And honestly...water.
Carrying: not as big as I remember being with Ruby. However...I remember being like 36+ weeks with her and we all know that every week in this last stretch you get bigger and bigger so I could be right the same as with her.
Work: I am working one full day and one half day. This week I only worked a half day and it was great! I'll get back to you when I'm 33 weeks next week and working full days again:) But in general, I'm doing well and my clients are understanding and I just try to sit when I can.


I am really focusing on enjoying this last little bit of pregnancy.
I mean...it IS still 2 months away so it's not like it's going to slip by.
But it probably will.

Oh, can I show you my favorite picture from our family photos so far? She keeps giving me bits by bits so I don't know if I want to post them all at once or show you as I get them but here.
Anyways:


Oh, Baby N. You're gonna fit right in!

Friday, June 29, 2012

36 Weeks!


We're getting there, folks.
Our natural doctor predicted she'll be here July 17th.
Let's see if he's right.
Either way...we're getting there!

I feel great today and in true hormonal fashion, that varies from day to day.
One day, I can't take it anymore and I can't wait for this to be over.
The next day I feel good and want her to stay in there because life with only one is surely easier than life with two.

So much easier to carry her in my belly and not lug around that stinkin carseat.
Along with a 20lb stuffed diaper bag full of everything under the sun.

Basically, my one piece of advice for pregnant women in the last stretch (I learned this with Ruby) is to STAY BUSY.
Just keep going, going, going (and rest when needed) because otherwise you'll just sit and think and let your mind get the best of you. 
Like waaaaah why am I still pregnant. And this hurts, and that hurts!
Just keep moving. Stay busy, and hopefully sleep good and hard at night.

4 (ish) more weeks!


p.s. Had an appointment today! I am dilated to a 2.5 and 50% effaced. eek!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Staying Positive!


As of late, if you need me, you can find me sprawled out looking a little something like the above photo.
Sometimes even a shirt is uncomfortable touching my belly, so up she goes. Belly exposed. Classy!

Each night, like this very one, I toss and turn silently begging for a comfortable position.
I can't decide whether to let my mind wander and think of birth/baby things or not being pregnant anymore. Either one makes me miserable because they both are NOT HERE!

Pregnancy shows me very clearly that patience is not my forte.

On another note, I also realize I have two choices:
whine for another month
shut up and make this a fun and memorable month for our little family of three.

We've been really busy lately which is a good thing!
Baby shower for my SIL, bridal shower and wedding for my cousin, work, church, midwife appointments, friends coming into town, etc. How much does it stink that the 4th of July is on a Wednesday this year?! I love 4th of July. Everyone in our town drives to this one park and lays out blankets and watches the huge fireworks display. And I have always been excited for baby N to hear the loud booms and claps inside the belly (seriously, how fun?!)

BUT we'll be in church, and miss all the fireworks:(
There's always next year!

It's been scorching here lately. Like, I feel like the sun has been approximately 20 feet from the earth's surface where we live.
I am so, so thankful for all the trees that surround our house. They shade and cool our house SO much. Such a blessing.

Ruby is loving having her cousins living here now. They are so ornery and yelling one minute and downright precious the next. Ahh toddler first born girls. I love them.

Look what Daddy found on the road and brought home to us!
Turtie. Ruby loved him. We brought him inside and set him on the coffee table and kissed and held him.
Then our friend told us through text that turtles carry salmonella and we should wash our hands.
So Turtie was let outside to go find his Mom and Dad.


 Ever since our family pictures, Ruby thinks the way you pose for a picture is to kiss your Mommy.
I hope this phase never ends.
I can get a kiss whenever I want so long as there is a camera pointed towards us.


Can't get enough of this little girl and this awesome age...

Friday, June 22, 2012

Pals


My sweet girl. My firstborn.
You'll always be the child of mine that first won my heart. 
I love you.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

The Best Father I Know


To my husband, the father of our children. 
Sometimes, when you have it good, and have always had it good you just don't realize how good you've got it.
May our children always, always know the value in having you as a Daddy growing up.

We don't take your hard work ethic, your always-positive attitude, your calming and gentle spirit, or your hilariousness for granted. 
We adore every single little thing about you.
Everything!

Happy Father's Day, my love.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Pregnancy Encouragement

27 wks. in Florida
 It's not always easy being chipper and cheery while pregnant.
It's some of your most sick and most uncomfortable days.

But I can't help but often shake myself and just say come on.
I think of all the women out there who would kill to be in my shoes, who have prayed and longed and desired to be pregnant but just can't.
How dare I whine or complain about something that is an absolute gift.

I think it may be a little bit easier the second and subsequent times around because now we have children and we see how amazing it is.
If Jesus died on the cross...I can be pregnant and birth a baby.


I've said, at my hardest times during this pregnancy "I don't know if I want to do this again, Kevin. This is such a long, hard process." and "remind me, in 2 years when I come to you and start saying 'honey, let's have another baby!' and I have that look in my eye....remind me how miserable I am right now please"

But in all actuality, I know for a fact, that in 2 or so years, I will be coming to my husband, longing for another child. Because it's just in me.
And because, let's say pregnancy is 9 months of total hell (which it's not), then it's ONLY 9 MONTHS OF TOTAL HELL for the greatest thing on earth!
For a child of yours!
For a life.
For another one of Yahweh's sons or daughters to fulfill His purpose for them on the earth, that could do who knows what for the Kingdom of God.



This preciousness and this calling is priceless. I would do it over and over and over again, if you were the result each time, Ruby girl.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Snapshots

  When I get a picture of these two together my heart just smiles.
I love them both so much, together and separately.


Sleeping babies - nothing better.


We gave our scooter away this week. We got it when we were newly married and child-less. We had lots and lots of fun summer nights on that thing. So glad the new owners will get to enjoy it as much we did!


Again, heart so happy with this picture.



Delicious summery dinner my honey made last night. Couscous, my love. 


Oh, and if you were wondering about Ruby's rather tiny pants, it's because we got down her old newborn clothes for baby N and since I was obviously excited about what was in the bin...so was she. She was pulling the clothes out and putting them on.
These are size 0-3 months, haha!


Monday, June 11, 2012

How Much Longer?


33.5 weeks. Yes, that "and a half" is very important!

If I could describe the way I feel in one word it would be: uncomfortable.

It's almost as if I have a heavy, 18-inch long mass in my belly shoving all my organs to the wrong spots and pushing my stomach acids up up and away into my chest and throat.

Sigh. But...I know that sweet, cute little mass will be here soon.
I keep telling myself "you're almost 34 weeks. Then the next week will go really fast and you'll be 35. Then it's only 2 weeks till you're 37, Jessica. And THEN you're just 3 weeks away from having her!"

That seems easier to grasp than six weeks away. Bleh.

......................................................................................................


If you ever need help in the kitchen, call Ruby James. She is awesome at helping.
She cleans her room very well for a 2 year old, and can grate cheese.
I love her.



Saturday, June 9, 2012

Picnic With Cousins


This morning we met my momma and older sister and her children at the square for a picnic and some play time.
Shannon (my oldest sister) just moved back home with her family from Syracuse, NY and we are all happy to have them back.
Ruby finally has cousins around!

Aunt Caitlyn (my youngest sister) and her nieces and nephew


I've always said I think we'll have four kids...that is a lot. And that's with one in my belly.



Ruby, thus far, has been the star of the show. She's the been the only grandaughter around on my side, and the only one, period, on Kevin's side.
She'll figure out once her little sister is here that she doesn't really always get to be the center of attention. Having cousins around sure is good for a little one.

Especially cousins that forgive you after you've furrowed your brow and growled at them upon things not going your way...

Thursday, June 7, 2012

The Counting Game


Does your toddler ask the same question six hundred and seventy nine times, even when you've answered them over and over?
Mine does!


So to keep myself from yelling RUBY! STOP! (because we do not yell in this house. Not in anger anyway. Maybe desperation. We shout and sing way too loud and chant each other's names while doing something awesome, but we do not yell in anger)... I came up with a way to keep myself sane during the 11th time of "Mommy, I want some mmm" even though I am currently getting her some mmm. {Mmmm = food, btw. She came up with that...}


I started playing a game to myself where I count how many times she does it.
Now it's like a fun, exciting little "oh gosh, is she?! Is she gonna make it to 14 times? Come on, one more time! I want to tell your Dad you asked me for that 14 times!!"

It seriously works, try it.

Me and Kev will be in the car and she'll be in the back asking to go where we are ALREADY GOING over and over and over. And we just smile at each other and take a deep breath while we watch my fingers go up in counting. (Last night to church it was that she wanted to go to church 16 times. Asking for Clarence 17 times is the record so far).


Until they are really old enough to grasp "do not ask one more time", do yourself a favor and play this game. And realize they are just sweet little people learning and soaking it all in and they don't understand social rules like we do, so let's give 'em a break. 

Happy Counting!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

No Such Thing As Mundane


Lately, life around here has been pretty interesting.
One day I have energy and I'm so happy and all motivated and could participate in track and field events if I stumbled across a meet somewhere.
And the very next day you can find me laying on my side, along with my 3 best friends: pillows. Between my legs, arms, and under my head.

Having a toddler sure makes pregnancy different. In all honesty, though, I like it better.
The time goes by faster and you stay fitter because you are forced to move quite a bit more.


The girls' room is coming together and it's my favorite place in our house.
I can't wait to see and put up the paintings my friend Gena so sweetly offered to paint us.


Tis the season for caprese salad!
Is there anything cooler than going outside to your herbs and picking a few, rinsing them, then eating them? I love it. And all I have is basil and some lettuce from last year.
The dressing I use is easy peasy:
equal parts balsamic vinegar and EVOO
garlic to taste
honey to taste


Every time I give Ruby caprese salad, I come back to get her out of her high chair and all that's left in the bowl is red and green. She just eats the chunks of mozerella. Funny girl:)

I love, love, love watching her play.
She is so sweet and so kind in her own little play world. The way to talks to her animals is so sweet.
She is a natural-born Mommy, that's for sure.


I've been drinking lots of smoothies lately. I just love how much nutrients you can pack into something so yummy and refreshing.
I guarantee you, if you switched out your morning coffee for a smoothie with spinach and chia seeds you will have just as much, if not more, energy. It's amazing. I can tell a big difference when I don't have a spinach smoothie.


32 weeks, people!
I'm suspecting this darling will come a few days early, though I'm not getting any hopes up.
I just want a healthy, fully formed baby.


All the people that have told me my belly is so small this time are no longer saying that:)
This belly is huge, and I still have 8 weeks to go! Agh!


Here's to the rest of my pregnant (and thereafter) days being those awesome, great-feeling, track and field days!

Friday, June 1, 2012

31-32 weeks


Yesterday I turned 32 weeks along.
Nuts!
Only 8 more weeks to go.
This photo is from last week on Kevin's phone so I was actually 31 weeks here.

I cut my old OB/GYN's hair today and was reminding him that I was dilated to a 4 with Ruby for over a week a couple weeks before my due date. And he said that the chances of me having this baby even a few weeks early is quite possible due to my history with the first pregnancy.
SO
the plan is to stay very very hydrated so that I can keep this little girl in as long as she needs to be. We don't want an early baby if we can help it!
But I believe babies come when they're supposed to, so long as you don't mess around with nature.

Plus, second labors, I hear, are generally half the time as your first. That means 6 hours this time.
Especially since it wasn't that long ago since I had my last baby.
Again...nuts!

It's crazy to think that I actually will have another child and that this baby actually will come out.
It all seems so theoretical until they come.

Anyways!
Gestation: 32 weeks
Feeling: really good! I have noticed just the past week or so getting headaches and having lots of gorgeous heartburn. I can't lean or bend over comfortably anymore, that's for sure. But in general, I feel so good.
Nursery: almost done! It is so, so, so, so CUTE. I love to hang out in the girls' room. That's where I fold laundry because it's so sweet and beautiful and happy. I'll post pictures as soon as it's all finished. ie. we don't even have a crib mattress or any bedding and the walls are blank. (that will soon change!)
Weight gained: 18lbs. Starting this week I gain a pound a week! And baby starts getting chubby:)
Cravings: sugar! and ice. I love ice. And honestly...water.
Carrying: not as big as I remember being with Ruby. However...I remember being like 36+ weeks with her and we all know that every week in this last stretch you get bigger and bigger so I could be right the same as with her.
Work: I am working one full day and one half day. This week I only worked a half day and it was great! I'll get back to you when I'm 33 weeks next week and working full days again:) But in general, I'm doing well and my clients are understanding and I just try to sit when I can.


I am really focusing on enjoying this last little bit of pregnancy.
I mean...it IS still 2 months away so it's not like it's going to slip by.
But it probably will.

Oh, can I show you my favorite picture from our family photos so far? She keeps giving me bits by bits so I don't know if I want to post them all at once or show you as I get them but here.
Anyways:


Oh, Baby N. You're gonna fit right in!