Friday, June 4, 2010

I typically don't write anything too deep on here because it's the internet. That's weird for me. Some people are guilty of being more "open" and "themselves" online than in real life, and that's a sad, sad thing.
But lately there's been a tapping in my spirit to go beyond the shallow surface. Again...within borders. I am so not one to "Dear Diary" this thing.
But the most recent revelation I have gotten is this: I have got to stop looking around on the internet so much.
I find myself on blog after blog, looking at women and their seemingly perfect lives, finding traits in them that I desire for myself and then I spend the rest of my day with their words and images racing through my mind, leading me to comparing my life with theirs. Have you ever been perfectly satisfied, proud actually, of let's say, the decor in your home? You love it. Then some friends of yours have you over for dinner and you see their house and all of the sudden you start seeing things in your home you want changed? Let me just tell you...that's not right.

I have had such an awesome, peaceful time with my heavenly Father today. Asking for Him to show me who I am. What that means. Oh, I know who I am in Him. I know my big purpose here on the earth. But what, for me, does that look like? I'll tell you one thing...it doesn't look like anybody else's purpose. His plan for me is going to be unique and one of a kind, and it's a colossal waste of time for me to try to find it in somebody or something else.

So I encourage you. Shut the TV off. Step away from the computer. Close the magazines. Spend time with your family and with your Father and find out who you are. I guarantee you it's better than what you've been looking for.

7 comments:

Bethany said...

Amen sister! I struggle with this constantly. I think it has gotten worse with pregancy. It's a constant battle, but I am ready and willing to take on the challenge of being happy with exactly what I have. God has granted us blessings beyond measure, and I just have to keep reminding my self of this!

Kari Beth said...

girl! my mother in law and sisters in law were talking about this exact thing the other day. i feel fortunate to always have been proud of my individuality and random style, etc. but lately after having elle i've started second guessing myself and everything that comes with...from my parenting style to what i'm going to wear to how my life is organized and i honestly think its from blog hopping! sad but true. i'm so glad you were open about this...glad to know i'm not the only one that has struggled with this.

The Galloways party of 4 said...

I agree so much with this. This is something the Lord has been working in my heart as well for a while now. It's just not worth it, to spend so much time distracted instead of thoroughly enjoying what is right in front of you and so much more precious. You have no idea how many times I have been a click away from "deactive facebook" or delete everything! I compromise and say well I need to keep in contact with family and then let it steal so much from me. This is a very good and sobering blog post.

Anonymous said...

Way to write from your heart Jessica. It looks like this resonated with several people, you never know if something you share can affect readers.

Sheryl said...

How incredibly wise you are, my dear! There truly is no other you, and that is God's beautiful creation. We're each individually and wonderfully made. We need to embrace that and have that deep inner confidence. We each have our own path and journey to live, run, dance, give, share, encourage, teach, inspire who He guides us to. I love this post. I love your honesty. I love you:)

Leslie McDaniel said...

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. This very exact thing happened to me the other day. I didn't even know I didn't like the decor in my living room until I went over to a friend's house and saw hers. I even bought candle holders (that I did not need) the same week because I liked how they looked in her house. And I have had a blog experience like that too. I saw these Easter decorations on this girl's blog (didn't even know her) and I almost bought them at Hobby Lobby because she had them and they looked cute. I wouldn't have even looked twice at them otherwise.

So strange you said this...maybe YOU are the prophetic one to ME!

Larsen Family said...

Amen!!! I think we all have a tendency to do this from time-to-time. To compare ourselves to others, even when we shouldn't. God is so good to show you what he has for you, and not the other person sitting next to you. He wants a personal relationship with each one of us so he can show us each what that is. Good stuff.

Friday, June 4, 2010

I typically don't write anything too deep on here because it's the internet. That's weird for me. Some people are guilty of being more "open" and "themselves" online than in real life, and that's a sad, sad thing.
But lately there's been a tapping in my spirit to go beyond the shallow surface. Again...within borders. I am so not one to "Dear Diary" this thing.
But the most recent revelation I have gotten is this: I have got to stop looking around on the internet so much.
I find myself on blog after blog, looking at women and their seemingly perfect lives, finding traits in them that I desire for myself and then I spend the rest of my day with their words and images racing through my mind, leading me to comparing my life with theirs. Have you ever been perfectly satisfied, proud actually, of let's say, the decor in your home? You love it. Then some friends of yours have you over for dinner and you see their house and all of the sudden you start seeing things in your home you want changed? Let me just tell you...that's not right.

I have had such an awesome, peaceful time with my heavenly Father today. Asking for Him to show me who I am. What that means. Oh, I know who I am in Him. I know my big purpose here on the earth. But what, for me, does that look like? I'll tell you one thing...it doesn't look like anybody else's purpose. His plan for me is going to be unique and one of a kind, and it's a colossal waste of time for me to try to find it in somebody or something else.

So I encourage you. Shut the TV off. Step away from the computer. Close the magazines. Spend time with your family and with your Father and find out who you are. I guarantee you it's better than what you've been looking for.

7 comments:

Bethany said...

Amen sister! I struggle with this constantly. I think it has gotten worse with pregancy. It's a constant battle, but I am ready and willing to take on the challenge of being happy with exactly what I have. God has granted us blessings beyond measure, and I just have to keep reminding my self of this!

Kari Beth said...

girl! my mother in law and sisters in law were talking about this exact thing the other day. i feel fortunate to always have been proud of my individuality and random style, etc. but lately after having elle i've started second guessing myself and everything that comes with...from my parenting style to what i'm going to wear to how my life is organized and i honestly think its from blog hopping! sad but true. i'm so glad you were open about this...glad to know i'm not the only one that has struggled with this.

The Galloways party of 4 said...

I agree so much with this. This is something the Lord has been working in my heart as well for a while now. It's just not worth it, to spend so much time distracted instead of thoroughly enjoying what is right in front of you and so much more precious. You have no idea how many times I have been a click away from "deactive facebook" or delete everything! I compromise and say well I need to keep in contact with family and then let it steal so much from me. This is a very good and sobering blog post.

Anonymous said...

Way to write from your heart Jessica. It looks like this resonated with several people, you never know if something you share can affect readers.

Sheryl said...

How incredibly wise you are, my dear! There truly is no other you, and that is God's beautiful creation. We're each individually and wonderfully made. We need to embrace that and have that deep inner confidence. We each have our own path and journey to live, run, dance, give, share, encourage, teach, inspire who He guides us to. I love this post. I love your honesty. I love you:)

Leslie McDaniel said...

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. This very exact thing happened to me the other day. I didn't even know I didn't like the decor in my living room until I went over to a friend's house and saw hers. I even bought candle holders (that I did not need) the same week because I liked how they looked in her house. And I have had a blog experience like that too. I saw these Easter decorations on this girl's blog (didn't even know her) and I almost bought them at Hobby Lobby because she had them and they looked cute. I wouldn't have even looked twice at them otherwise.

So strange you said this...maybe YOU are the prophetic one to ME!

Larsen Family said...

Amen!!! I think we all have a tendency to do this from time-to-time. To compare ourselves to others, even when we shouldn't. God is so good to show you what he has for you, and not the other person sitting next to you. He wants a personal relationship with each one of us so he can show us each what that is. Good stuff.