WARNING: this blog is only words. It's my recent thoughts and nothing fun/exciting/colorful. Just posting to post.
Hello! I've been keeping myself busy with more little crafts for baby. (Have I MENTIONED I wish that I could sew?!) I have come to learn something about myself that I am not thrilled about whatsoever. I am the LEAST competitive person you will probably ever meet. I always have been. If a girl looked better than me in high school, I just thought "well go on girl, good for you" and wouldn't try to out do her. When I played sports, I rarely ever got aggressive, I just thought "well good heavens if you want the ball that bad, you can have it" and I would step back.
This has rolled into my adult life in that if I am not good at something my first try, I just think "oh well" and stick with the things that I DO know. HOW STUPID!!
On the contrary, there are 2 areas in my life that I am probably one of the MOST fervent and passionate person you know, and that is my Spiritual walk, and my family (i.e. Kevin and Ruby) I will fight to the death for either of those things, and it wouldn't even be hard, it's just my nature. It's who I am. It's my greatest passion and care in the world.
So, yes, it's great that I have those things in order. I mean, ultimately God (as you know, I use His self-given Hebrew name Yahweh, don't let that throw you off!) and my husband and family really DO need to be number one in my life. But since I've got those nailed down...I'm excited to see when I will be able to delve into more arenas of passion. Where I will try something, and maybe not get it right away, but have that something in my innermost being stir up and say "NO! Don't stop! Keep trying! You can do it!"
It will happen.
We say this all the time in our house:
"Little by little..."